Sunday, September 28, 2008

trying too hard

When I was in elementary school, handwritting was really stressed.
We had to practice alot and we were graded on how neatly we could write. You had to hold your pen a certain way and slant your paper a particular way. I hated hand writting, no matter how hard I tryed, mine was never the really pretty flowing script that was so popular.
One day I just had had it. The harder I tryed the worse I got and I just knew I was going to make another bad grade.
I remember just sitting there and saying to myself, the heck with it. I was never going to have good handwritting and I was tired of trying and I decided to just accept the fact and get on with it.
It was the funniest thing, once I did that, I just wrote without thinking about it. I relaxed and stopped holding the pen so hard and just let it happen. I ended up having the best penmenship in the class. The teacher would let me write the examples on the board of how she wanted our handwritting to look. I loved how my handwritting looked especially after what it had been before.
I have found that very helpful in my life. When I am trying to do whatever and find myself getting all up tight and try and try and only get worse, sometimes I just have to stop and let go, to walk away.
By letting go and accepting that I may not be able to get it perfect and just do the best I can, it comes together and many times I am surprised at how good it turns out.

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